It used to be so easy to make the call
So easy to start the talking
Space here for several years of failing love
But now talking of what
Small talk to just keep talking
Most days I would try to write a poem; it is a practice, as I suppose is meditation, or smiling, or watching the world go by
It used to be so easy to make the call
So easy to start the talking
Space here for several years of failing love
But now talking of what
Small talk to just keep talking
And today in my mind I am revisiting
Just for you, oh, and also for me
I came to this place
Almost twenty three months ago
Then, as now, the sky was blue
The river tumbled and splashed
Like a poet planted
Some time before the snow
Blue, blue, big blue Friday afternoon
Beside the lonely, the only one, the River Erme
In between the then and now
Turbulence has been maintained
Turbulent mind, turbulent body
Turbulent health, turbulent wealth
From landing to leaving
Things were fluid and rolling
My head was full of love, my body was tired or alive
I was ill, I was well, I was poor, I was paid
The sheep graze these windswept moors
Lambs born amongst the driving rain
Alongside the gorse and the reeds
A crop cut grass pleads to grow
Those crazy beasts keep on mowing
There love-stock are dropped and fawned
Where it’s rough it’s ready
Why should we ever misconceive
And the bleat breaks
That waterfall of springtime silence
Alone amongst a thousand acres
Chasing after mother, after mother nature
No more whingeing or whining
Springtime springs once again
In a world beyond the shoulder
Whatever we can believe, she can give more
Your lips were shielded
My attempted kiss was fielded
I was at mid-on, you were in the deep
Have you lost the ache
Or did I make a mistake
Was another known, sown to reap
Your lips were dry
My finger tips did try
I was in a spot; you were playing a sideways shot
Have you lost the ache
Or did you make, on purpose take
A solemn aplomb chastity vow
Your body wandered
My advances squandered
I was seeping, you were wicket-keeping
Have you lost the ache
Or were you playing the long game
No time for a quick one, as slow coming she came
Your last defence was tested
Tip of tongue, engaging, redemption rested
Your lips moist to wet, tongue tip nest and set
Was it lust or just a mistake
Afterwards you, did you ache
One more fallen swollen reaping rake
It has been a busy day
I have escaped a long long way
Early on I was talking to Mr. Masefield
Resplendent in his business black suit
The cut was neat, lined with finest silk
The hair was brave, not a Locke did misbehave
He was with Elisabeth, is it Mrs. Stanhope Forbes
By the edge of the woods, turkey crop and scythe
They were wondering at the Moonlit View
Of Mr. Francis Darby’s Eastern city
As they dared to forsake, partake
In Mr. Geoffrey Hill’s grinning cake
In the background, surround sound all around
Beside you, sang Mr Van Morrison, oh Astral Weeks
It has been a very busy day
I have escaped ever such a long long way
Journeyed almost as far as Camilla
Who married again, this day, today
I did not go to the service
I spilt my tears among the radio congregation
Tears of joy and there but for the grace of god go I
Or is it the North Wind
Blowing alongside the dust ball, to the canal basin
That which I am to engage with, in regeneration
A long term plan, you say
I retort, as if Capability Brown ever saw
His landscapes as anything more than nature
In full sway, in full public awe
Here in Weston Park, under the mid-day
Noon time dark
Clouds, clouds with Eastern rain
And Southern comfort
It has, as I say, been a long long day
I’ve escaped, escaped in a very busy way
Before meeting Mr Masefield
I’d scribed a few words of my own
Memories of yesterday’s funeral
Polish youth, in Polish dress, the Pope was thus blest
Memories of yesterday’s other funeral
The receivers set the works to rest
Oh and lest I forget
I’d imagined and spoken, words under my breath
I’d spoken, under my breath
Another day, escaping death
It has been such a long day
Escaping in many a different way
Unlike the child dying in St. James Hospital
By the Poet’s hand in the library compilation
‘Out of Fashion’ I recall the cover rolled
Although I did not study the small print
I did though take the flyer
To hire a china dragon, a dragon blowing fire
And I bought some books, go on, take a look
Yes it is John Stammer’s ‘Stolen Love Behaviours’
And Jackie Kay’s Life Mask, although I thought
The cover was an Eduardo Palozzi creation, it was in fact clay
And finally Scenes from Comus by Geoffrey Hill
Ticked by the Archbishop of Canterbury no less
It has been, as once again I say
It has been a long day
It is not yet noon, although it will be evening soon
Beneath the midnight of the moonlit moon
Except that today, yes today of all days
Today I am escaping away
It has been sixteen years I’d say
Sixteen years I’ve been losing my way
It’s sixteen years
Sixteen years to the very day
And sixteen years before that score
Sixteen years plus some more
Another sixteen years
Sixteen years leading again, out of the door
Then sixteen years, before some more decayed
Sixteen years or more I’d stayed, stayed and played
With my mother and her lover of sixteen years
Sixteen years of unconditional love she gave