I open up to the physiotherapist
Say that I do want to do as he asks
But look, I just cannot move my arm
He moves it for me, without undue pain
A lot of trouble is in the head you see
Yes I say, for these past twelve months
I have been protecting my left shoulder
Bending, and shaping
In all sorts of unnatural ways
To prevent work for that muscular area
In the meantime the physiotherapist says
You have forgotten how to relax Christopher
Always you are tense
Always you are overcompensating
And yet all the while
I have been meditating
I have been learning to still the mind
Learning to be mindfully aware
But I have neglected to be aware of my body
And why should it now play ball
Right now, just because I want it to
No, no, first for sure
My body will say, Christopher
You must go through the pain barrier
