Now Book Two
Or Nummer Zwei
If you prefer
I turn to you
To be carefree
Alive with joy
No mention here
Of reasons why
Or reasons why not
Better today
To stay with life
As it falls in my lap
You know the sort of thing
So no need for me to expand
Other than to say thank you for being here
Proserpine
Your words I find
In the midnight mind
Searching for a peace of kind
A solitary recitation
Escape to meditation
Walking on sands of sedimentation
From the galleries of sensation
Tortured heart
Broken soul
Bare, on the gallery wall
Pain standing ten feet tall
Your sleep
Is my sleep
Your weeping
Is what I keep
Silently, slowly you slip away
Fade, fade, fade away
The flowers lose their colour
The trees lose their leaves
Silently, slowly you slip away
My tortured heart
A deck of cards, broken apart
By the midnight mind
The insomnia was overtaken
Travelled it seems so so far away
And now we are awakened
Our pain has been taken
We have left behind
All that was forsaken
Lost what I thought was mine
In the garden of Proserpine
I stare in the window a gleam in my eye
Come in beckons the lady
Me innocent I
The lace is St. Lauren
The French panties would make you want to cry
I so so want to buy them
Me innocent I
The doorway is wide
No need to be scared
Come in beckons the lady, nothing to fear
The lace is authentic
The lady smiles
"Obviously for a special person”
Well now I'm talking, what do you think
In a shop full of ladies' underwear
Without a blink
Me innocent I
"If my husband bought me that
Heaven knows what I’d do"
Yes now we are talking
And there's only us two
We've moved from St. Lauren
To G.Strings and briefs
"Some people will wear them
Some people won't
What about your lady
You innocent I”
I say that you are special
That your figure is good
That you are fun to be with
Educating me, innocent see
"But are you shy and retiring, or experimental and gay"
What! No, no, absolutely not I say
Just a slight misunderstanding
A little laugh
"I mean outgoing, energy for life”
Yes that's right
Back on the right track
Do you think a lady
Would like to be given these I ask
"Oh yes, oh yes, absolutely"
"Especially that
That would leave her in no doubt"
No doubt as to what, I dare not ask
Well that’s it, I’ll take them
Wrap ‘em up
"Nay you'll need t’stockings an’t slip”
She smiles
“You innocent I”
When the whites of your eyes
Don't see the light of day too often
Then my friend it's time to call a halt
Yes when every waking moment
Bequeaths some form of escape
The time is nigh to seek gestalt
Each cringe of skin
Each sudden jitter
Listen
Listen good
Time to change
So how do you go, where to look
The answer is screaming
But it is within
And no more lies will help you
Begin
Of course the biggest most damaging lie
Is to oneself
But also the most easy
Until self respect returns
Clutch not onto straws
Unless to hold them in your hands
And gaze real hard
Mean something
So stare beyond the bricks and mortar
Focus your attention
On the most minuscule
Be not afraid of being misunderstood
Or of misunderstanding
Slowly now, real slow, take all of your time
Soon, soon the thinking will begin
Take a thought and write it down
Pluck another, as they race across
Your myriad of disconnections
Now mix the thoughts with pen on paper
In words, in pictures
And as you draw, as the ink flows
From those thousand instantaneous hits
Inside your head
Remember
No conception this from stimulant
No alcoholic haze, nor nicotine dullness
Just you and you
Move on, move on, still smooth, still slow
Reach your tips of toes, beyond the body
Stretch out, to your very extremities
Turn on the music, listen, listen
To just one heartbeat
Amongst those hundred thousand
Collisions of sound
Take a colour and rub it rich
Deep into the canvas
A life in layers
Layers of golden crimson
Now pick up the silk
Soft, so so softly, stroke between
Your fingers and your thighs
This is you and only you
Alive to tactile sensory sensation
Stimulated within, within, by you
Step now, step forward, step back
Twist your toes and smile
Learn to say to say control
You may feel, if you wish
A little pleased with progress
But progress one moment only
Knowing full well this house of cards
Is not yet ready to turn to stone
So stop, stop now, and work hard
To recollect
Remember that very instant, when
You did not, would not, could not, say no
Folding, falling
For fictitious, viscous, 'freedom'
If, if only
Avoid if only
Build a test to test temptation
All the while fondling silk
And feeling good
Each and every once you see temptation
Eating at your core
Work, work with pen and paper
Work with thoughts and thoughts
Now decide, in the full light of day
And the full light of your being
Your reason, your rationale, for living
Escape if you wish
But escape to nothing
Nothing more than the oxygen
The oxygen of you and you
Stroke the marble, marvel at the texture
Mould the ball, within your palm
Say soft words, say them slowly
Sometimes take time to contemplate
Two thoughts
Intertwined with a common bond
Molecules in mesh
Upon this creation add your idea
Try to weave your way inside
This composite, stable
Living, breathing structure
Feel, feel not for a parting
But a solid bond, a point of high energy
Waiting for your fusion
This is friendship
Here the lies are gone, and to enter
Your first pass, is with truth to yourself
Friendship is a form of magic
Conjured from the craziest calculations
Open your arms embrace, smile…
Enter
Aye lad we’re watching Coronation street
N'today on t’phone
To that Manchester lass
A sort of broad vocal happy laugh
Filled the air and filled the moment
Void of anything except innocence
Happy asking directions to deepest Devon
Aye lad, you see it’s the simple things
Simple and complete communication
Keeping speaking souls sanguine
Lately we’ve been forgetting
Later perhaps regretting
But, sometimes not even that