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Monday, 20 March 2023

Perspectives

Why is there no photograph

Of me with you

How sure of myself

Would I have had to have been

To ask a friend to snap us

With my arm around your shoulder


I don’t know where

You bought your outfit

Neither have I any understanding

Of how ridiculous you thought I looked

Or in what way you responded

To my father of the bride speech


You left me with my brothers

Went upstairs to our family bedroom

The ignominious hours were almost over

Though the everlasting damage was done

We were polite at breakfast, especially

With the remaining guests at table


A couple of days later

Back home in Devon

I wrote my own record

Of how I thought the day had gone

I didn’t capture any of these feelings

But yes, I do have a copy, somewhere



Sunday, 19 March 2023

Standing

Only now do I see

That it was my turn

Oh how I took it

To play the blood

Is thicker than water card


Did you realise

From that day forwards

How it would always be for you

No longer numero uno, but now

A bit part in a larger family situation


Was that then the final straw

To our many many partings

Was the next unexpected leaving

Too much for you to look forwards to

Did you see all of my potential failings


Without a purpose

Would I have no anchor

Without clear objectives

Would I drift without aim

Could you in that case no longer hold onto me




Saturday, 18 March 2023

Big Day

I do remember the arguments

My teenage son

Wanting to wear inappropriate shoes

To my daughter’s wedding


Something about

The immovable object

And the unstoppable force

Comes to mind


I think you thought me ridiculous

Childlike even

I think you thought me useless

Entirely lacking in negotiation skills


I don’t know that you know

How much you hurt me

How important it was for me

For the big day to go smoothly


Did I ever tell you

How I was watched throughout that day

In an attempt to keep me sober

With no mind to my anger or my disappointment




Friday, 17 March 2023

Resounding

I have a view

Through net curtain windows

A blue sky with thin white clouds

Beneath which sits

A whole forest of trees


Not in view

But directly below

My third floor

Is a single track railway line

Going to, and coming from


Back in time I also wrote of what I could

Not have seen, from my hotel bedroom window

Firstly the promenade, in Lyme Regis

Then that encroaching black black sky

Which eventually stole away my horizon


The coming from, and the going to

They all happened too too often

Even now you might see

That I am simultaneously struck

By the echoes, of arrivals and departures




Thursday, 16 March 2023

Top Of That Hill

Giuseppe Penone’s

Alberto Folgorato

(Lightning struck tree)

Could be the very metaphor


Amplified by the dark clouds of Yorkshire

Highlighted by the sky's silver linings

The split trunk

Says much about divergence


The gold-leaf offshoot

Itself splits in two

Their fine points

Reaching ever upward


Yet it is the dark bark

A combination of browns, silver-greys

With slivers of gold

Which looks strongest, which reaches highest


What we leave behind

May grow ever brighter

But in no way, no way whatsoever

Did it stunt our growth