I do not mind doing voice-overs
But I do not wish to be filmed whilst speaking
I do not mind writing the narrative words
Though I do not want to be filmed when writing
I do not mind walking on contemplative walks
But I do not wish to be filmed contemplating
I do not mind being the one who is the one
Though I do not wish to be filmed as if being the one
I do not mind being a part of the stillness
But I do not wish to be filmed as that stillness
I do not mind being a part of the silence
Though I do not wish to be filmed as that silence
I do not mind being a part of the prayer
But I do not wish to be filmed in that prayer
I do not mind being up in the middle of the night
Though I do not wish to be filmed during the night
Most days I would try to write a poem; it is a practice, as I suppose is meditation, or smiling, or watching the world go by
Saturday, 23 November 2019
Friday, 22 November 2019
Mute, Dumb
You chose not to say hello
Or to say goodbye
Let alone any promise whatsoever
To see you later
How deeply I must have hurt you
To make you so so unsure of yourself
How could I have known the silence
My silence, would deprive you of your life
Yet I continue to beat myself up
For you are my secret
My secret to begin with
My secret to take with me along the way
You go into your room
You close your door
What have I done
That you wish to evade me so
Why do you detest me so
That you cannot bear
For me to see you
Or for you to see me
Of course I may be way off course
You may have other reasons for your privacy
And it may just help you
That I don’t try to rock your boat
Or to say goodbye
Let alone any promise whatsoever
To see you later
How deeply I must have hurt you
To make you so so unsure of yourself
How could I have known the silence
My silence, would deprive you of your life
Yet I continue to beat myself up
For you are my secret
My secret to begin with
My secret to take with me along the way
You go into your room
You close your door
What have I done
That you wish to evade me so
Why do you detest me so
That you cannot bear
For me to see you
Or for you to see me
Of course I may be way off course
You may have other reasons for your privacy
And it may just help you
That I don’t try to rock your boat
Thursday, 21 November 2019
This Is It
If I might remember
Those moments of pure calm
Those times I think to call love
Love to see more, or love to see less
For it is almost nothing
This view, this thought
This time for contemplation
Which some may call Zen
On one day in November
Not continuously dry
Nor forever sunshine
But pleasant, yes pleasant
I took my camera
My notebook and my pencil
I walked through the round garden
Towards the white bridge
I stopped awhile, to write
Some pressing words
I stopped, to take
Some indicative photographs
I was alone
But I was not alone
I had love
I had my memories
Those moments of pure calm
Those times I think to call love
Love to see more, or love to see less
For it is almost nothing
This view, this thought
This time for contemplation
Which some may call Zen
On one day in November
Not continuously dry
Nor forever sunshine
But pleasant, yes pleasant
I took my camera
My notebook and my pencil
I walked through the round garden
Towards the white bridge
I stopped awhile, to write
Some pressing words
I stopped, to take
Some indicative photographs
I was alone
But I was not alone
I had love
I had my memories
Wednesday, 20 November 2019
Ready
I rise, I shower, I dress
I am ready for Vigils
Ready to hear
The prayer, the song, the chant
In effect to be in the here and the now
Yet also to retreat, to escape
Into the land of beauty
Into the world I do not know
I will leave today
But hope to return in springtime
Yes, to see the gardens, and the river
As they return out of winter
Brief as my stay has been
I have found peace
I have wandered freely
I have been at one
I will take that with me
To recreate, in my own backyard
But, I am also certain, that whatever I take away
Will in no way deplete the stocks
I am ready for Vigils
Ready to hear
The prayer, the song, the chant
In effect to be in the here and the now
Yet also to retreat, to escape
Into the land of beauty
Into the world I do not know
I will leave today
But hope to return in springtime
Yes, to see the gardens, and the river
As they return out of winter
Brief as my stay has been
I have found peace
I have wandered freely
I have been at one
I will take that with me
To recreate, in my own backyard
But, I am also certain, that whatever I take away
Will in no way deplete the stocks
Tuesday, 19 November 2019
Plead
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be
So lost for ideas
Especially
After reading from
Jonathan Steadall’s book
Where on Earth is Heaven
I should be preparing a letter
To send to the BBC
Asking them, with some determination
To take his films out of the vaults
Show them again why don’t you I ought to say
For nothing much has changed
Show them again why don’t you
For the searcher’s search still goes on
We are all, all looking for something
We are all, all a little bit lost of song
We are indeed all looking for our very own heavens
Or at least, for what it is that is right, or wrong
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be
So lost for ideas
Especially
After reading from
Jonathan Steadall’s book
Where on Earth is Heaven
I should be preparing a letter
To send to the BBC
Asking them, with some determination
To take his films out of the vaults
Show them again why don’t you I ought to say
For nothing much has changed
Show them again why don’t you
For the searcher’s search still goes on
We are all, all looking for something
We are all, all a little bit lost of song
We are indeed all looking for our very own heavens
Or at least, for what it is that is right, or wrong
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