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Tuesday 11 April 2023

Overlooked

The last visitors to our house

Sensed something was wrong

A marked lack of conversation 

Pauses, which lasted way too long


Quite a lack of togetherness

You didn’t join us for the walk

No Bon-homie then offered

Rather, a stiffness to the talk


Hours of feeling awkward

Desperate to take their leave

Dust still on the floorboards

Heavy was the air to breathe


Unsure of where the love had gone

No sounds nor gestures made

Emptiness is the place of suffering

Darkness thus the tools of trade


That I didn’t see it, not a jot

Indeed, half thought all was well

That I did not reach out to realise

Is symptomatic of the lies I tell



Monday 10 April 2023

Neutral Location

I am on ground without conviction

New territory

Yet a calm place

Even with the aroma of creosote


These are big old trees

Which the warm breeze

Rustles through, as if waves

On the almost settled ocean


There is generosity to be had here

Says he, with the mistral

Moving into his left shoulder

It is ok to feel for you


Right from the very start

Right to the final departure

Also here right now

However many years on


To be alive is the greatest gift

For a while we walked there

I was not easy to live with

Though neither were you


But from this timely distance

This new, occupation of being

I will offer you back the dance steps

I will pass the baton on



Sunday 9 April 2023

Thankful

It is August now

Outside the cottage museum

No one enters, no one leaves


If I wander for long enough

I may just find what it is

That I wander for


If it is to read the poems

Of Thomas A Clarke

It will not have been a wasted journey


Neither if the result

Was to recollect

The untamed sexual desires


Of consenting adults

Caught in the crossfire

Of early middle age


If I mooch about in my mind

I may see another door open

You, stood uptight behind me


Both of us, variously undressed

Warm, welcomed, willing

Willows within each other’s skin


If I try to work it out

I may decide all is nonsense

Me, trying to make a way of it


You, you say to stay away

What did the tea leaves say

Be thankful for the journey



Saturday 8 April 2023

Visibility

I did look at you

Then I did not

Once again I look at you

Though soon I may not


I did look at you

What were you thinking

Now I look at you

Unable to ask of your thoughts


Did you look at me

Then did you stop

Ever again did you look at me

No, maybe you did not


Did you look at me

See into my thinking

Now do you look at me

Unwilling to ask of my thoughts



Friday 7 April 2023

Prospects

A life of deposed disposition

An end to the Spanish

Or any other, inquisition


You had been the pretty girl

But, at least for now

It seems you have gone walkabout


I had been the dashing young man

But, at least for now

It seems other matters occupy me


Wherever tenderness was

There is tenderness no more

Such apparitions from a distant shore


We do not let it go

Though neither

Do we hang on


Our dear life

Is for that other life

Which rather speedily approaches