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Wednesday 1 July 2020

Coincidental II

The sun is bright
The wind is wild
The wood burner gifts warmth
I think of all of those things
Which I could not think of
When it was dark
When it was cold
When the wind rattled my windows

The book is done
The book is split in two to reduce the burden

The peace is good
The calm is a treasure
Without having to move
I can be moved
My eyes and ears can move me
My mind and its memories can move me
With this movement
All is afloat

The next book is contemplated
That work may also be split in two

The crystal offers rainbows
For which the walls say thank you
The door is closed
The door may be opened
As may the cupboards
In search of last years work


Tuesday 30 June 2020

Coincidental I

I saw a photograph
Of a sculpture by Kan Yusada

Leaning against my wall
I have a poster, from YSP
For an exhibition by Kan Yusada
Somewhere I will have my own photographs

I had to refill my pencil
I spilt the leads
Into my desk drawer
In my impatience

To tell you of the coincidence
Or might I say: happenstance


Monday 29 June 2020

One Other Place

I was at a religious conference
At a summer school
(I often go to summer schools in my dreams)
I had made friends with a military man
Who felt that he needed to speak out about
The conflict between the military and religion
An older lady joined us
A cheerful yet devout believer
Who told my friend
That God would make it all ok
And not to worry too too much
The two of them went for lunch
My eldest son joined me
And asked how was I going to entertain him
Because his mum was being such a pain
I only had five pounds in my pocket
And knew that would not satisfy his wants

Triggers

I had watched a film the night before
About Dr. Stephen Hawkins
The credits said he was 72
A couple of days ago my son
Had been to his grandfathers funeral
I am typing up my poems from 2005


Sunday 28 June 2020

Solitaire

It was instability
The very opposite of being in control
There was guilt
An acknowledgment of wrongdoing

It was emotional
Pains in the tummy
Rattles in the headspace

No one else was present
It wasn’t a shared success
But what if it could have been

What if someone
Could have helped
At that point of vulnerability

Imagine if the tears
Could have been encouraged
To flow without restraint

Then, if with that person
An open conversation
A discussion of and from within

Wouldn’t that equanimity 
Be worth having
More than the velvet sacks of silver


Saturday 27 June 2020

Absent Without Leave

It is the funeral today
But I won’t be there
Though we did share a joke
Playing bingo that Sunday lunchtime
In the Conservative Club

You teased me
About the thousand pound prize
Which I fell for
Hook line and sinker
As also for your daughter

Yet the words ended
As the separation began
I became persona non grata
Which was understandable 
Given my lack of conviction 

It will be a small affair
All others, or most
Having already passed
Their bowls and blazers
To the cloakroom attendant

Your family will be there
At least your child and her children
Who carried your burden
Only to end up
Spilling over with tears