But back at Emerson
From now on will mean
The scorched grasses
The open greenhouses
The storyteller’s building
Vacant throughout this summer
A sense somehow of love
Also of decay
That exact same sense of love
Also of decay
Found in among I
I who is that same person
Most days I would try to write a poem; it is a practice, as I suppose is meditation, or smiling, or watching the world go by
Tuesday 9 April 2019
Monday 8 April 2019
Fifty Nine
This will be my way
I will not go to breakfast
Instead to save that time
For writing
That is first for thinking
Then for writing
That is to engage my own mind
With the image of moorland bramble
On the box of Yorkshire Tea
That is to metaphorically
Walk along that path
Across the moor, atop the Pennines
Or to reminisce
On my own poem Preamble
As a way of returning to Dartmoor
As a way to remember
The five AM rising; to bathe in incense
With Gregorian chant, with monastic prayer
I will not go to breakfast
Instead to save that time
For writing
That is first for thinking
Then for writing
That is to engage my own mind
With the image of moorland bramble
On the box of Yorkshire Tea
That is to metaphorically
Walk along that path
Across the moor, atop the Pennines
Or to reminisce
On my own poem Preamble
As a way of returning to Dartmoor
As a way to remember
The five AM rising; to bathe in incense
With Gregorian chant, with monastic prayer
Sunday 7 April 2019
Fifty Eight
Today I did not go to exercise
But tomorrow
Oh yes, but tomorrow
Whatever reason then
Whatever lack of self-love then
May I feel the sources
Of love, of joy within myself
Yes, I raised these words internally
I thought on, of the sources
I smiled with love, with joy
May I recognise then the sources
Of angst, of hurt within myself
Yes, I followed those words mindfully
I thought on, of the sources
I becalmed my angst, my hurt
Of those two imposters
I treat them both the same
For what I love also gives hurt
For what is angst that it also gives joy
But tomorrow
Oh yes, but tomorrow
Whatever reason then
Whatever lack of self-love then
May I feel the sources
Of love, of joy within myself
Yes, I raised these words internally
I thought on, of the sources
I smiled with love, with joy
May I recognise then the sources
Of angst, of hurt within myself
Yes, I followed those words mindfully
I thought on, of the sources
I becalmed my angst, my hurt
Of those two imposters
I treat them both the same
For what I love also gives hurt
For what is angst that it also gives joy
Saturday 6 April 2019
Fifty Seven
I won’t go to watch the sunset
I did that once before
I won’t visit the hundred-acre wood
Nor find out the latest score
I will write, I will sleep
I will sleep, I will be
I will read, I will write
I will shape up as if to keep
I did sleep, I did wake
I did dream, I did wake
I did sleep, I did wake
I did dream, it was no mistake
The light is here early
The light is here strong
I don’t know what the dreams mean
Yet they were clear, they did belong
I did write of the young man
Alone on the train
I did write of his young love
Together again, still the same
I did that once before
I won’t visit the hundred-acre wood
Nor find out the latest score
I will write, I will sleep
I will sleep, I will be
I will read, I will write
I will shape up as if to keep
I did sleep, I did wake
I did dream, I did wake
I did sleep, I did wake
I did dream, it was no mistake
The light is here early
The light is here strong
I don’t know what the dreams mean
Yet they were clear, they did belong
I did write of the young man
Alone on the train
I did write of his young love
Together again, still the same
Friday 5 April 2019
Fifty Six
I question myself because
I question myself, because
I have doubts, because
Why else am I here, why do I
Feel uneasy; not yet welcome
In myself, not in my body, not
In my mind, not yet introduced
To my own new found freedoms
So, still it seems, I remain trapped
Why choose this place, of intense
Personal exhaustion, to follow
A path penetrated by my own
Illness, my own weakness
My own unachievable desires
My own, distinctly-indistinct deceptions
Where else could I be at this precious time
In my life, where to see the logic, the line
Where to find the sea, as I wonder how to be
Here now to find the love, to find a lover’s sign
Here to prosper, just beyond the base design
I question myself, because
I have doubts, because
Why else am I here, why do I
Feel uneasy; not yet welcome
In myself, not in my body, not
In my mind, not yet introduced
To my own new found freedoms
So, still it seems, I remain trapped
Why choose this place, of intense
Personal exhaustion, to follow
A path penetrated by my own
Illness, my own weakness
My own unachievable desires
My own, distinctly-indistinct deceptions
Where else could I be at this precious time
In my life, where to see the logic, the line
Where to find the sea, as I wonder how to be
Here now to find the love, to find a lover’s sign
Here to prosper, just beyond the base design
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