New Year & Coping

I don’t want to get drunk

Why shouldn’t I get drunk

I’m on my own

I don’t want to let the pain in too near

I could be responsible

I would be grown up about it

I don’t want to be madly happy

No tears of happiness

Can hold back this night from the morning

I didn’t want to say all of those things I said, but 

I felt neat, I looked good

& I damned well wanted you to know it

The fights had stopped, the music too

The brave face turned towards despair 

& he sent in another song request

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Looking Up The Hill :: Love To Make You Stand Back

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Cope

Would I ever say that I was at a loss

I don’t think so

Brave face and all that

Happy for tears of happiness

Sadness, despair? No; only once had I 

Lost control & it was not going to happen again

So I listen to the whole of the world

Send in song requests, answer email quiz questions

I choose to leave the personal stuff for later

Write, read, send texts if needs be

Though don’t make me take any telephone calls

Let the voices stay in bed until the morning

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Looking Up The Hill :: Love To Make You Stand Back

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New Year

New Clothes

Skin tight sky blue jeans

Mauve paisley shirt

I felt neat

I liked how I looked

I was feeling pretty-damned good

A friend arrived

With two stolen bottles

Of his parents wine

I didn’t want it

I didn’t want to get drunk

I wanted the experience

Sitting

On the sidelines

In the dance hall

I felt shy

I felt inferior

I felt inadequate

She asked me to dance

We danced

We danced, wild and crazy

I felt happy

I felt popular

I felt incredibly loved

Outside 

At the end of the night

Trying to stop the fights

I felt responsible

I felt grown up

I should have walked her home

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Looking Up The Hill :: Love To Make You Stand Back

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About

I read you once

It was enough to say 

I love you

I read you once

& asked for nothing 

In return

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Looking Up The Hill :: Love To Make You Stand Back

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Seasonal Ego

Yesterday the sun’s warmth 

Warmed my love of the world

Today grey skies & incessant rain

Reigns in my positive imagination

Photographs try to give momentary respite

Yet they throw out little thermal energy

For you I would recall the gentle Zephyr

Should you ever wish to return

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Looking Up The Hill :: Love To Make You Stand Back

Christopher's Poetry collections can be found on iTunes and on kindle by clicking the highlighted links